Tuesday, February 26, 2008

20080227 - 是我的错吗?

明明是有的, 却变成没有了~

以前从人家口中, 也有听过类似的情境, 可是并不了解原来这件事一旦发生在自己身上, 那种痛是无法解释的...

就像你明明存放了RM100进银行, 突然间发现你的钱全部不见了, 连你户口里头之前所储存的钱也一并不见了, 那种感觉是多么心痛啊!!! 嗯... 虽然用钱来比喻有点不怎么贴切, 可是我现在只想得到这个比喻.

好希望它仍然还在... 可是, 事实上, 我也不能再抱有希望了, 因为希望越大, 失望也会越大...

原本这就不是我计划中的, 可是它的到来让我觉得我的人生开始有点改变及充实的时候, 它又不在了, 我真的不晓得应该再怎么走明天的路. .. 不晓得如何面对明天的太阳, 及月光~

我想, 我须要的是一段过渡期吧~ 希望不久的将来, 我会再重温这种虽然很辛苦, 却很享受其中的快乐滋味...

下一次, 我一定会更谨慎及小心的, 因为我已有了这次的经验...

老公, 也谢谢你一直在我身边的陪伴及体谅!

也希望你, 能够再回到我身边来, 再当我的宝宝...

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Boring Day~ Last day of "PIG" year

Today is 6/2/2008, last day of year of "PIG"!!!

But I still have to work today due to not much leave left~ Took too much leave for my wedding last year...

Office only left 5 people, 2 Malay, 1 Indian and 2 Chinese. My department only left me alone. Chinese stalls around us are not opening of course. Car park was so empty~ Phone not rang at all for the whole morning! Colleagues starts walking here and there because no more order coming in, nothing to do at all!!! Feel very lonely...

This year will be my first year celebrating CNY in my husband house. Feel a bit uneasy and weird.

There are a lot of changes after married :-

1. No more Ang Pow to receive during CNY
2. Need to give Ang Pow to relatives pulak~ Pain...
3. Can only go back to my own family house at Day 2 of CNY
4. People starts calling me Mrs Chong, not my name

However, I miss my Mum very much~ Can't wait to go back to Seremban already. Can't wait to see my own family...

Gong Xi Fatt Cai to everyone! And wish you a prosperous "Rat" year.